Surgery Bullshit

So I got unwrapped today and got all the details
from the doctor.
It wasn't good.
In fact it's pretty much the opposite of what I was expecting.

Real simple. In 2013 I had a tumor removed from my
inner ear. It wrecked my hearing.
Then I had a post op infection that lasted almost 3 full months.

After that I had to let the stuff heal and then a follow up
surgery was supposed to reconstruct as much of my hearing
as possible. That was delayed because my Dad passed away
and then my appendix exploded and had to be removed.

Yesterday when I was opened up the doctor found a new
tumor and the planned reconstruction got turned into a demolition.
That's why surgery was an hour longer then expected and
probably why I was in so much pain in recovery.

Originally surgery was supposed to be 3 to 4 hours but
ended up being right around 5. Plus an hour+ in recovery.

It was pretty bad so they gave me something, I dunno what, that
was really strong and had me still feeling the effects a good
seven hours later.

It wasn't morphine, I've had that before. Morphine is a warm
feeling that rolls over you and chills everything out.
That wouldn't have worked yesterday.
Whatever I got numbed everything and made me hella groggy.
The searing hot pulsing pain inside my head literally disappeared
in a few seconds and then I was in another dimension for hours.

In June I'm having a hearing test and I'll probably be determined
legally deaf (if I want a handicap permit for parking).

I will 100% need a hearing aid now and there is the prospect
of yet another surgery in September/October to make sure
the tumor is gone, my balance is preserved, and limited
reconstruction maybe happens.

I don't have an eardrum now. That thin membrane is gone.
I might be able to get a reconstructed one, but that
remains to be seen. Recovery and a future scan will
determine if that's possible.
I lost many of the bones that are part of the hearing
system and a certain amount of skull was carved out
because it was diseased.
Basically what was once a hearing organ is now going
to be empty space.

What's even moar funner is the fact that my ear cavity is
full of absorbent material. Like 2 or 3 inches inside my head.
That gets pulled out of my head AND new material gets put in.

My doctor told me to take a pain pill 10 minutes before arriving
because it's not going to be fun.
It gets better too. I have to do it three times over the next three
weeks.

Total recovery is like 3 months as long as I don't get any
infections.

So yeah. That's my fucked up problem and there goes my entire
summer. I have a surgery planned for the other ear in June/July.

Since I can't hear I really can't waste time watching movies on
Netflix. I'm not allowed to do any lifting or moving. I can't get
wet. I can't bend over. It's just too much fun